Like A Parched Desert....

Like a parched desert O Lord my soul is longing for you .... Nothing here satisfies my soul, all is as dust and nothing to my taste.  I feel as a lost pilgrim wandering this earth with no real place to call home...Why O Lord must it be this way?  Is it because You so long for our love? Is it because You so long for us to finally see You? Is it because if we are restless here then we will better focus on You? Perhaps it is so. Yet we are asked to be happy here, to rejoice even...It is hard when all is so full of turmoil, pain and great effort to even achieve the smallest accomplishments. Perhaps that joy comes when You manifest in small ways and large sometimes too HOW great is Your longing for us with kind little "God Winks" as a dear friend calls them. Perhaps the joy is from knowing HOW great is Your love for us small human creatures. Nothing more than the dust I feel like surrounds me are we humans. How long O Lord, how long? A short life can seem like an eternity when your spirit is in pain and filled with longing for You. How long O Lord, how long till we see Your beautiful face finally and permanently? O Lord my soul is yearning for You with a longing that human words cannot properly express...If only my beautiful daughter and I could be assured of Your permanent prescence for eternity that alone would suffice to bear all that seems to be my fate here... Help me Lord to muddle through this parched desert and find the eternal fountain of Your love....Amen.